Can be the trail of love going forth from my heart that I follow inexorably
Into the arms of the unknown
Joyous to see what may be found
(In my mind’s eye, I always picture Buttercup from the Princess Bride leaping out of the window in her white dress at the end of the film)
Recently I have been reminded to enjoy the juiciness of life. To create my life: Movement, action, grace and vibrancy in my everyday life and in my being. To respect myself and care for my body. I was asked–do you live from the pain in life or from the pleasure? What do you hold on to and what does that bring to your life? Which do you choose to focus on, to pursue?
It reminds me of a poem I read in Rumi: the Book of Love translated by Barks Coleman and others. It’s called “Breadmaking” and it is about a scholar who has studied knowledge and yet never experienced life it seems. He disturbs the banquet of the king by protesting the good food and wine. Rumi says at this:
“This is sometimes how it is at God’s table.
Someone who has heard about ecstatic love, but never tasted it, disrupts the banquet.
He’s all fire and no light, all husk and no kernel.”
At this point in the poem, the king orders the cupbearer (the invisible guide) to “do what you must.” And the scholar is forced to enjoy himself and does just that, fully, even making love with aplomb.
The poem ends telling us: “A mutual embrace us always happening between the eternal and what dies, between essence and accident. The sport has different rules in every case, but it’s basically the same, and remember, the way you make love is the way God will be with you.”
This is the pleasure I see as the opposite of pain. For that pleasure is not a hedonistic search but instead arises from deep joy, passion and love for life. It creates vibrancy in our beings where we leave past hurts behind and have the freedom to create our lives anew. How do we find this place? look at the places of joy in your life and see where in you this joy, this pleasure arises. Care for yourself, nurture yourself and your joy. Take action and see what grows.
Hail to the Joy of Being!
I am the point where all things meet
That which is of the earth sees the earth
That which is soul, sees the spirit
I exist at the potential for all to meet
That the matter experiences Spirit and the Soul sees through eyes of flesh
God’s own eye, opening in my very heart
I am the point where all things cross.
I recently had a zing of inspiration to create art. Full sized, throw myself into it ART! Though i had fallen out of the habit, painting and constructing large scale art has always been a great release for me. Visiting MoMA in NYC over the holidays reminded me of this joy and I came back to the Great North tingling with anticipation to create!
What does this have to do with the title “both and”? Well! So often in life I have found myself limited by thinking that I can only have or do A or B but not both! As though somehow choosing one forever closed the door on the other. Not true! Though life shows me again and again that more is possible than my limited mind could comprehend, I occasionally find myself in these boxes of self-made limitation.
This is where the art comes in! The nature of art and the sheer fact that I can create beautiful art while still diving into rigorous science on a daily basis helps shift me out of these narrow thoughts. It is a question of embracing abundance and art is like the earthquake that shakes me out of a rut, sometimes destroying the rut altogether!
If the limited thoughts sound familiar–try stepping into creating in your media of choice (I always enjoy full hand painting! Don’t even need a brush!) or even go visit a gallery or art museum–see what happens.
Thank Goodness for Art!
Here’s to the unlimited, the large, the possible, the abundant!
My painting–”You Already Have Everything You Need” or “The Forest of My Heart”
As the year comes to a close, I find myself thinking of my role in this great wide world.
What do I give to this world? How am I serving the people around me? What legacy do I leave as I move through this life?
Paraphrasing a quote from my Guru–it matters what we do when we have nothing and when we have everything.
I look at my life and am grateful–I feel I have everything. Everything I need for myself and for creating my life. What do I choose to do? What do I offer to the world?
What do you choose to do?
With Love and Gratitude,
I wish you Many Blessings for this New Year!
Om Jai Jai Sai Maa!
When I say “I’m lonely”
I’m looking for my Soul
When I say “I want a relationship”
I’m looking for my soul
When I cry and say “it hurts”
I’m looking for the love of my Soul
When I’m content and joyful
At peace in myself
I have found it!
Sifting through everyday “problems”
(While at times they feel “real”)
It now feels more Ike sorting laundry
When I could leap into sea or sky
Unhindered and Glowing
My whole being filled with molten gold
A Movement, Being, Becoming